Two weeks ago I joined a gym. It's relatively expensive but I was able to score a couple discounts because of my health insurance and because I signed up for a year long contract. When I was asked if I wanted to pay month to month or sign up for the year I said, "Let's go for the year. Only thing that would stop me would be if I got fired and had to move." I fear that may become a reality sooner than I thought.
My job has a transient nature. People don't stay in one place for very long in my profession. There are definitely some people that can have long and amazing careers in one city but it's not very often you run into that situation. At this stage of my career I expect to be moving around to find a place where I can take the next step. That's been the story of my life the last few years. I've spent New Years in 3 different cities over the last 4 years. To get a feel for what this is like, imagine reliving your freshman year of college over and over again. No one wants to do that.
It's not always easy to pack up my life and start over somewhere new but I prepared myself for the possibility when I decided I wanted to get into the broadcasting business. Part of that preparation is putting up a wall to keep people out. It's a lot easier to say goodbye when you don't have anyone to say goodbye to. I know that sounds a little depressing and...well...it is. It's mostly depressing when it comes time for me to move. The only friend I've had around to help me move the last 3 years is an old college friend that traveled from New York to give me a hand.
I've started to throw those rules out of the window. My life has begun to blossom in my current situation and that has resulted in my guard being let down more and more. I have been very lucky to meet some great people that have added a lot of happiness and entertainment to my life. It's been a long time since I have had a group of people I could go out and grab a drink with on a Friday night. Troubles at work as of late are making me regret this positive change in my life. There is clear stress between myself and one of my closest co-workers and that is leading me to believe that my time in this city may be coming to an end. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I can avoid that situation but unfortunately I think it is out of my hands. I think I need to start practicing my hand shake and use of the phrase, "Hi, my name is..." I do believe that I've turned a corner though. I think the memories I've had with these people will stick with me longer than the goodbyes.
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